New day.

Man is fond of counting his troubles, but he does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought to, he would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it. ~Fyodor Dostoevsky

We are seldom happy with what we now have, but would go to pieces if we lost any part of it. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960

If you observe a really happy man you will find him building a boat, writing a symphony, educating his son, growing double dahlias in his garden, or looking for dinosaur eggs in the Gobi desert. He will not be searching for happiness as if it were a collar button that has rolled under the radiator. He will not be striving for it as a goal in itself. He will have become aware that he is happy in the course of living life twenty-four crowded hours of the day. ~W. Beran Wolfe

i've never been more lost by whats going on.... scared, confused, and tryin to stay composed.

i will pray, because beyond that...i have no idea what to do or think anymore. my heartaches thinkin of the worst. i just want the ability to erase it from my mind.

what a deal!

Highlight of today-

finally went to use my VS coupon that is good through today. expected to only get one bra for the going rate of 50 buckaroos. Oh no....2 bras, 1 underwears for about 42 bucks. I must have looked like I had a rough day walkin in there in my baggy scrubs and frumpy hair. The girl looked like she pitied me and gave me a better deal than was neccessary. So yes...thank you ms. VS worker girl (ya know...tryin to sound like those bud commercials).

2 tests, 1 presentation, 1 project, 2 quizzes, and hospital rotations.....and a partridge in a pear tree.

delirium is setting in...and its monday. wish me luck, this week is a doozie. yep. ddooozie.

Inspiration

Lately...

Life is a struggle.

I'm not sure what's happened to me or my happiness. So I'll keep on tryin...because that's all I know to do.

And maybe buy some music. :/

gnarly pneumonia

well....turns out its not the flu

i caved last night and went to the ER upon feeling like I might croak.

got a pretty "gnarly right lower lobe pneumonia" according to doc

getting it rechecked tomorrow, hopefully the antibiotics take hold they are hoping.

thanks for the get well wishes....hopefully soon they'll come true.

slackin

well...the great photo brigade has gone nowhere thus far. but will once i have some energy, freetime, and internet all at the same time.

first week back was rough. i was feeling extremely exhausted by thursday which explains the lovely fever and flu-like symptoms that started friday. pretty sure i got coughed on by one too many patients this first week back and being stressed with it being the first week back didn't help much.

anyway i'm still alive but feelin pretty deathly.... so let me be an advocate to get your flu shots early on. full fleged flu season usually doesnt start til october but obviously its already out there

hopefully i can pull myself together enough to not miss any class/clinic time this week. we're basically cut no slack and any time we miss has to be made up, which is difficult when every week is already a full schedule.

hope everyone else is doing well...maybe next time i'll get some of those pictures to share