L.O.S.T.

...in every sense of the word.

Cue the circus music!

If life ever feels boring, I can assure you that welcoming 2 great dane pups into your home will bring much entertainment! I can now call my home a 3 ring circus. Funny that in the last year we went from no pets to a cat and 2 puppies. We have gotten quite a bit of feedback mostly along the lines that we are nuts to take on such large animals. I'm ok with that label, to each their own whether that be an itty bity dog or a dane.

Gosh I love these stinkers.....Expect some updates, mainly so you can go holy cow they're getting big....I still can't wrap my head around the fact that Roxy and Calvin are going to be like small horses walking around. Getting the fence finished on the yard will be a very very good thing for running and playing. Anyway, they're very playful, clumsy, and loveable.

caught in a daze....again

I'm so excited about the future that I can't concentrate on the present.
This presents a studying for finals dilemma. Motivation is running dry....pull it together!

If only I were Mary Poppins.... I'd snap my fingers and the jobs would be done.

Oklahoma leads the way!

http://www.pollen.com/allergy-weather-forecast.asp ... As someone with ridiculous allergies, I'm clearly living in the wrong place... Oh spring, I love and hate you.

MAY 10th! I can do this...

Faith.

Lately, I can't help but struggle with worrying and anxiety about everything from finding a job when I finish school and clinicals (JULY 29!) to making it through everything from now til the end of school, to affording my bills and student loans, to something happening to someone I love that it is no wonder I am consumed with everything that is not the present. While some dwell on the past, I dwell on the future. Which I mostly attribute to a time when my cares were for that day only, which are now, strangely enough, the times that I look back on and am grateful for. Because I truly lived in the face of fears, I took opportunities that now I think "wow, I can't believe I did that" Because everything in my reasoning and decision making now is so careful. Which I guess is part of growing up for me, because those times in the past did not come without bad decisions included.

I always worry. Always. I had to listen to a speaker for a class a couple days ago that talked about her battle with breast cancer. She's a few years older than me and had to go through a breast removal, chemo, and intense radiation therapy to fight this aggressive cancer. And it dawns on me that nothing in this life is for certain, so you might as well live to the fullest while you're here. It's so simple, right?

This is long and rambly but I do not take nearly enough time outs from "oh my gosh this test is coming up and I'm not ready, 20 page paper, anxiety about everything" to just breathe. Thank God for a sunny warm day. Appreciate the people I love while I am/they are here. And the answer that I feel I have been slacking on majorly is F.A.I.T.H. While none of what I am writing is profound, it is a constant challenge to choose faith. Here's some quotes, as a reminder to myself to always have faith, it will all be alright.

Faith is not something to grasp, it is a state to grow into.-- Mahatma Gandhi
Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.-- Martin Luther King, Jr.
Fear clogs; Faith liberates.-- Elbert Hubbard
Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.-- Gail Devers